♪ Goes by the name Vivien.
♫ 19 as of 10th June 2009.
♪ Cold to strangers, warm to friends.
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♪ Very emotional at times.
♫ Bear with it, otherwise see you next time.
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Thursday, July 16
When there's a cause, there'll surely be an effect. The cause of my high-ness today isssss...
My Chinese has improveddddddddd! *Whee clap clap!
And the effect isssss...
Imma try my skill here todayyyy! x)
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First word already dunno how to type -______-" Hello tutors where art thou people? =(
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这几天想了很多
从来都没有想过我们这么快就会变成这样
你对我说过的话有没有一句是真的?
为什么你要让我相信你是 A type 的
可是你本来就是 Z type 的麻 =.="
如果你只是觉得无聊，想找个人来陪你玩
你找错人了
我玩不起，也输不起
他们都叫我放弃了，可是我不想你，说变就变
其实是我做错了吗?
如果那晚我不是这样对你的话
可能你就不会去那个地方，也不会认识她
如果我没有突然间对你那么冷淡的话
可能你也不会。。她。。
为什么你说你怕会伤害我
难道你不怕会伤到她吗?
这是骗我的吗?
还是你觉得她比我好
比较美，又比较主动
不会让你一直等她?
还是根本就是我自己想太多。。?
你根本一点都不在意我。
我知道你会来看我的 blog, that's why its in Chinese. 因为你不会看。其实我要学 Chinese 也是因为你。我不想让你知道我在想什么。=)
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Hehehehe. Pro not!! I also kinda proud of myself hahahaha. All thanks to my tutors - Cheese, Jojo, Moo, webbie [translator], song lyrics, dramas o.o But sure got a lot of mistakes la I know and I cannot write one perfect sentence yet
=( Anyone who knows Chinese, please correct the above text for me alright? Must learn from mistake ma... =) Anyway I took the longest time ever to complete this post -_______-"
19:42
Over!
Been overdosed with caffeine for the past few nights. Haven't slept for four nights straight o___O New record heheh. So yesterday! I was finally decaffeined and started feeling dizzy after the last paper F3. Came home, do this do that a while... Then around 4+ I went up to my room and started to hibernateeeee! Actually I've been planning this hibernation since day 1, and dying to do it heheh. So it went on for 13+ hours, and today I woke up feeling extremely satisfied! =D
Brought my cubes with me today, cuz the timetable reads: "Its another boring day." Moo and Jo got attracted hoho~ Although I'm still lousy [I myself also just done memorizing the formula nia haha], but they asked me to teach, how can I say no to my darlings wor?! So I have to be thick-faced a bit and became their sifu! Now everyone is coming after me zzz.
Oh yea, last Sunday finally got to see my Ah Fung againnnnnnnnnn! Si beh high sia. Time passes by so quickly..The last time I met him was last October. Nine months already waaa. Somemore I went out late! Thanks to darling Cheese for helping me buy those stuffs and became my photographer =D and thanks to Nicholas for reserving a place for meee. Kamdong T.T Saw Moo there also hahaha. Her expression! Instead of happily greeting me, she was quite shocked to see me there that her eyeballs almost popped out like a squirrel
-__________-!! Soooo huuuurtttt! =( Then I Starbucks'd alone and wandered around aimlessly till almost 10. Came back home, then around 11 went out with Cheese and Nick again. Mocha'd. Came back, instant coffee'd. You say la how could I not be overdosed =.="
-__________-!! Soooo huuuurtttt! =( Then I Starbucks'd alone and wandered around aimlessly till almost 10. Came back home, then around 11 went out with Cheese and Nick again. Mocha'd. Came back, instant coffee'd. You say la how could I not be overdosed =.="
And and and! This is my 200th post! x) [Including the past entries that I've hid la.]
Happy 200th to scrtdzire!
I now have two hundred desires (and still counting)? =X
Now dont you think I'm very high today? Cuz..read the title if you can haha. But I know you cant cuz this layout made it unavailable =.=" so lemme share my joy with you in the next post cuz this is getting..
too...
long.....
Labels: Entertainment, Friendss, Random, Studies
16:19
Sunday, July 12
This entry is specially dedicated to Mr Eddy.
I know you think I've been fooling you. You're such a kind guy, I know, and I thank you for that. Thank you for caring. I really didn't mean to do that, but... Sighs. It was unexpected cuz we always joked around with this topic. Anyway, no point of explaining, I just wanna aplogize to you sincerely here for making you disappointed.
S.O.R.R.Y.!
I've promised that I'll make it up to you, and I'll keep my promise. But I'm sure you're gonna think that I'll not keep my words. Sighsss.
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Seems like whatever I do is always wrong. Not only to Eddy, but to everyone else as well. Let me just get away from all these for a while. I'm just so sick and tired of everything. What's the point of staying up till sunrise to think of the impossibilities?
I wanna shut my eyes forever.
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I cant sleep, I just cant breathe
When your shadow is all over me, baby
Dont wanna be a fool in your eyes
Cuz what we had was built on lies
And when our love seems to fade away
Listen to me, hear what I say
I dont wanna feel the way that I do
I just wanna be right here with you
I dont wanna see, see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you
What would it take for you to see?
To make you understand that I'll always believe
You and I can make it through
And I still know I cant get over you
Cuz when our love seems to fade away
Listen to me, hear what I say
I dont wanna feel the way that I do
I just wanna be right here with you
I dont wanna see, see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
Oh baby I miss you, I do
Cuz when our love always fades away
Listen to me, hear what I say
I dont wanna feel the way that I do
I just wanna be right here with you
I dont wanna see, see us apart
I just wanna it straight from my heart
I miss you, I miss you, I do
I dont wanna feel the way that I do
I just wanna be right here with you
I dont wanna see, see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
Oh baby I miss you, I do...
Westlife - Miss You
Labels: Lyrics
13:48
It's 4+ in the morning now.
It's raining outside, and it's raining inside of me.
CD Test 2 commences on Monday. I don't wanna see how the hell am I gonna score when I'm stuck in such condition.
Oh god, this sucks. To the max.
Btw, I wanna say a million thanks to those who cared..Thanks Jo, Dd dar, Ath, Joe, Keymon and especially Captain who is back in BM and even offered to take me out..but at the very last minute before he came out he got stopped by his mum cuz it was almost 11 -________-"
Now Eddy is calling me out to eat. That crazy guy, each time see me awake at this time sure call me out. I always agreed, but never once I did turn up. =X
Sighs. Its still raining. I'm still aching.
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look into those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cuz
He's the reason for the teardrops on my pillow...
Welcome back Ah Fung to Malaysia..Looking forward to meet him tomorrow night. =) Really hope by then I can enjoy myself and take my mind off everything.
Labels: Emoss, Friendss, Studies
03:57
Saturday, July 11
Why do people change from time to time?
Why do people come and go in just a glimpse of an eye?
Why do people lie?
Why do people feel hurt?
Why do people have emotions?
Why do people care for those who do not care for them?
Why do people not care of those who really care for them?
Why do people choose to runaway instead of trying to work things out when trouble arises?
Why do people lose faith easily?
Why are people so ignorant?
Why are people so protective?
Why are people so vulnerable?
Are you aware of what you make me feel? Do you really think my heart is made of steel?
Labels: Emoss
16:22
Friday, July 10
My mum took me out for lunch yesterday at a newly opened cafe nearby, so die die also I have to talk to her again. Saw Uncle Khaw there. After eating we came home straight. My godbro suddenly appeared out of nowhere in front of my house =.=" I so lazy to layan him cuz I really dislike him. Regret for being a minute too late to step inside my house, otherwise I don't have to waste my energy talking to him. So I went upstairs straight and left him alone in the living room to layan himself. When I came back down after doing my stuff, I just plopped on my chair and hid my face behind my laptop cuz I lazy wanna talk with him -_________-" I guess my mum also dislike him, she went: "I'm quite busy la, gonna go out already. You sit la." But he didn't quite understand cuz he stayed on. Then my mum had to say again: "I'm gonna be late for my class already, if you've got time then go visit Grandma la." Oh btw, my mum is learning Thai language =.=" Then only he left.
Later in the afternoon, I watched drama until I dozed off in the living room. Then my bro's friend came and I was sleeping like a pig but he didn't wake me up! =.=" Luckily I didn't embarrass myself. But still!! -__________-"
This morning. I was close to heart attack because of Santa who attacked me from behind. Lucky again my brain is quick enough for me to twist and turn the story another way round. -________-" Another regret is to rush my assignment last night. That weird woman, I cannot understand why she keeps being so nice to me ._____. And today, we only studied for 1.5 hours. Actually this situation has been going on for a month or so. Sometimes we didn't even study at all.
Lalala pointless life.
Labels: Family, Random, Rantingss, Studies
23:36
Rushing assignment, due 6+ hours later. It should've been completed earlier, but I have to redo Moo's part cuz it's super dizzifying. I quickly started printing after finished typing cuz I'm gonna collapse anytime soon. God knows, halfway printing the printer RAN OUT OF INK! Sumore I didn't notice and kept printing =.=" end result : one third of rubbish printed. Now I gotta reprint them zzz.
Omg daammmnnnit la Isofriggintension.
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